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Friday, July 10, 2009
- PIano
The urge has once again washed upon me. I suddenly feel like throwing away all my books and not moving away from the piano chair.Sighh. Something impossible and fatal. I feel so small there. Ever so insignificant. I wonder whether I'll live up to my former glory. I probably never will, but I'll try. ________________________________________________ Music Is... by ~gryphonlord ‘What is music?’ A little boy asked me that today. I bent down so that our faces were level And then I said to him with a smile, ‘Why do you care? Out of so many people today Why do you care?’ He looked back at me His eyes too thoughtful for his age And he said right back to me, ‘Because I want to make good music.’ I liked that answer, and I told him so. He was happy and he smiled. ‘Take my hand,’ I said, ‘and walk with me now And I will show you those things that proper music make.’ He put his small hand into mine and came with me. I didn’t know what to make of this, he trusted me. But I led him along, and as I did I pointed out Some of those things that proper music make. ‘Music,’ I said, ‘is the harmony in the world Brought together to create a myriad of sensations. Music is our footsteps on the ground Music is my walking with you. Music is that ancient couple over there See how elderly they are, yet they see each other with such love? Wouldn’t you like to grow up and be like them, to be your own music?’ ‘Yes,’ he said. ‘I would like to be my own music.’ And I thought and said that that was good. ‘Music,’ I said, ‘is the aural occurrence Between a beginning and an end, defined as whoever would. Music is the traffic in the early morning hours Music is the wind moaning in the trees at night. Music can sound like anything you want You and I are everywhere, surrounded by music.’ And the little boy looked up at me, this tall kindly stranger And he said with a sigh, ‘Anything I want?’ ‘Anything you want,’ I heard myself reply. ‘Music,’ I said, ‘is a blending of sounds To form something new, be it lovely or horrible. Music is the homeless man earning his meals by his guitar Music is the sighs and groans of those who make love at night. Music is the cadenza of a well-known symphony It can even be formed with human voices That tickle the ears or disturb the mind; it will depend.’ The little boy tugged on my coat sleeve at that moment. He beckoned and I obediently went down on one knee. He regarded me solemnly, with an adult calculation And finally he asked me, ‘Would this be music? The shouts and screams of enraged voices The awful songs of the drunks next door? The yowling shrieks of a cat in heat The sound of an empty beer bottle being broken? Being hit everywhere until one can’t move Or simply being touched where one feels violated? The low cooing of the prostitutes on the street Or the sighs that tell when the drugs have kicked in?’ I looked again closely at this little boy And for the first time I saw the scars and bruises. That this little musician sported on his body He had lived a short yet hard life, it was easy to see. I felt so much pity for my newfound friend Yet his eyes stared back proudly, daring me to speak. And I thought for a moment, and took his pale hand I told him, ‘Yes, this is music too.’
- It wasn't me!
Oh right.. maybe it was..Sorry all.. I was the one who bought the laptop and let them go ga-ga over my iPhone. Sigh. Guilty as charged. ------------------------------------------------------------ Hello Jamiyahians! [cc'ed: RI (JC) Interact Club] The service centre officer, Mdm Ziahna has set down a few ground rules in view of the J1 Interacters taking over from the J2s. She asked that Deborah and I inform you of the following. Please be advised that in accordance with the centre's requests, please ensure that you do not allow the children to play; 1. Card Games, 2. with electronic devices (i.e. mobile phone & laptop: computer games or screen movies, maybe GC too) She would like to remind all of us that our main purpose is to educate the children there, hence anything and everything done should have an educational purpose. The officer encourages active discussion with the children on your personal experience in school, study methods, style and discipline (i.e. how to do well in examinations) when taking breaks or all work is done. She warns that we should not indulge the children. [emphasis by officer] >_< Yep, that's all, folks. Don't be dampen by this! We can still motivate the children to study hard and have fun at the same time! Personal Advice: When there are times of your buddy having no homework, be prepared, bring books or magazines (with loads of pictures) and get them to read captions or small parts of the articles, while describing to them about the "outside" world. [I like using Nat. Geo and books like "1000 questions and answers"] For games, borrow approved educational board games from the Home itself. They have Sponge Bob Monopoly, I spy.., Scrabble and so on. :) Thanks, Elaine Pang & Deborah Ong ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- If I could, I would post their pictures up. I have them all shuffled at my desktop sidebar in a slideshow view. Everytime I see the pictures, the corner of my mouth starts to tweak and I can't help but beam. They're that adorable. I really really really want to post the pictures up.. Thursday, July 09, 2009
- Font
it's officially, my new favourite font style is Cordia New.Pretty in Cursive by =SeptemberBreeze She's got poetry in her eyes, conflagrant and stunning in so many manners. Resplendent daydreams spill from her mouth, aesthetically winding into the air and shaping my lips into a radiant beam. Her benevolent thoughts and fathomless words, I cannot repeat, I will not repeat.
- Dying
The internet is dying on me, well not internet persay, but the speed?Plus, the web pages load in a very ugly manner. Save me. Thinking of transfering all my blogger posts to livejournal, as then I'll be able to have 'friends only' post. Should I? Troublesome yes. No cbox yes. But comments can be left right? Plus, it'll solve all my problems. Though the html formating ain't that easy, and I'm really comfortable with using flickr to blog now. Doubt livejournal is linked to flickr. I'll find out first. Meanwhile, wish that I don't die while typing up this stupid science and human values reflection thingy. Don't get me wrong, I don't hate hate the topic, I'm just drained and wanna read finish The Chronicles by Narnia". Left off at Prince Caspian. Sigh.
- Books
I wanna read them all.T-I-M-E Wednesday, July 08, 2009
- Update
Lag of two days of not blogging.The word still feels weird under my fingertips. I wouldn't really call this blogging, just an expression of my thoughts. Anyway, Raffles Water Forum 2009 was great. It was slightly hectic and messy at first, (poor Mr. N) but turned out just fine. Also, learnt a lot about Singapore's water systems and ... --insert scary music-- aliens in our reservoirs. Plus, I'll never forget the part about the good marketing the top people do to ensure that we never ever think that everything is not ALRIGHT. I won't share it here. Join us at the next Raffles Water Forum and you'll see! Yes, it will be hosted again next year. Larger scale, liasing with other organisations and school. Hopefully I can contribute once again. Oh and received an invitation to form a society with regards to youth investors. Interesting :O Did I also mention that Renaldo opened a small posh stall at my school? My mouth died from the orgasm I had from the first bite. Koko is gonna be so jealous. Seriously, the apple strudel is to die for. If you haven't tried it before, you should. Website: http://renaldostrudel.com/ Tuesday, July 07, 2009
- Lazy Summer Days
Remiscing of the lazy summer days we had together,first as the quadruplets, then the trio. dwindling down to the twins, maybe alone now. running around barefoot, our soles on the scorching pavement drawing castles on garden tiles, stirring wicked potions and sweet spells, wheeling through the street in our imaginery world, oh how I wish I could return there. Sighing over the lazy summer days we had together. Far away. Sweet. Lost. Almost forgetten. We were so young, so clueless? So carefree, so pure Laughter echoed the halls Adventures found in every corner Fun just waiting to be captured oh, how I wish I could glimpse those joyous times. Missing the lazy summer days we had together. whispers across the towering wall, worrying about tomorrow, together at least. older now, taller too. wall seems shorter, yet thickened, if possible. oh, how I wish I could return to before.
- Inspiration
Please let the words flow. It's 1.24AM now. Tomorrow there's school. Groan. I'm writing an article as part of the Muhammadiyah Welfare Home Book Project 2009. 2000 words. Ex-resident's lifestory. Just reached home at 11PM after the informal interview at Deliferance@SingPost Paya Lebar. Incredibly drained after the whole day and totally unprepared for the school term ahead. Tuesday (which is today, come to think of it) I have the rehearsal for the Raffles Water Forum 2009.. which I am hosting as Master of Ceremonies, (i.e. emcee). Insert: Raffles Water Forum 2009 What are the strategic R & D initiatives that would benefit Singapore in the next 15 years? Did you know that in addition to Biomedical sciences, two new areas are poised for rapid growth in Asia and the world – Environmental and Water Technologies; and Interactive and Digital Media. So brace yourselves for the inaugural Raffles Water Forum 2009 on July 8th (Wed)! The objectives of the forum are (a) to instill an awareness on the sustainable management of water, and (b) to raise awareness on research and technological development related to water. GOH: Dr. Amy Khor (Mayor, South West District, Senior Parliamentary Secretary, Ministry of Environment and Water Resources & Deputy Government Whip) Worried and excited at the same time. Wednesday (tomorrow): long day ahead at the Raffles Water Forum 2009 Thursday: probably my only free day of the week, if it's not taken up by the Project Learn 2009 organiser meeting (the project is about arranging a trip to Cebu Philippines to distribute clothes, books and food items to the villagers there), I'll have to work overtime writing the article (2000 words long! help!) plus completing my long overdue homework. HOMEWORK. --screams and pulls hair-- Groan. why oh why did I waste the weekend and free days reading manga, watching Prison Break, Arrested Development, House, the Office, Black Blood Brothers.. and so on. DARN ITIITITITITITIIT!!! Alright. Let me do a summary now of events! (since this.. is a record diary kinda blog anyways..) Term 2: Raffles Science Institute Research Project: Phenology of Mangrove (field trips!) [click here! to see the website I created and "designed"] World Leadership Conference 2009 - Environment Law Module @ SMU Batch Project 2009 - Interact Club with HOME; organising tours for foreign domestic workers who were abused. (currently postponed due to H1N1 situation) Singapore Legal Community Clinic - volunteering as a helper doing pro brono work Internship at Law Firm - enriching yes! Youth for Autism - part of the team volunteering at the Pathlight school Astronight Event - volunteer to guide public to view stars through telescope 30 hour Famine camp - Gamemaster.. hehe torture people.. just kidding! Art Camp Facilitator - Help Jamiyah kids through their expression of art, first experience with Jamiyah children. (also met Siti for the first time!) Term 3 (things to look forward for..) Raffles Water Forum 2009 - MC, excited excited, can you feel it? Raffles Science Institute Research Project: Phenology of Mangrove (field trips!) Project Arm Strong 2009: Project Arm Strong works with MDAS (Muscular Dystrophy Association Singapore) to provide care and support to people with muscular dystrophy through facilitating games monthly. As a volunteer, there is a monthly commitment on weekends. Breast Cancer Foundation (BCF) Youth Wing @ RIJC is a group under BCF (Singapore) which spreads awareness of breast cancer and hopes to change the image of breast cancer being a taboo topic. We closely work with BCF to organise various activities inside and out of school and help BCF in their major events. Muhammadiyah Welfare Home Book Project - contributing Writer [click here! for more information] Project Learn (Letting Education Addressing Real Needs) - part of the organising team, Student initiated and student run project fundraising to help the underprivileged children in the mountainous area of Cebu, Phillipines. International Understanding Trip 2009 - Organising Team to arrange to Machap Umboo, Malacca! Repair and Healthcare Commitee :) avu@livejournal - part of jobscope to launch the official website! :) after all the hard work, cannot wait. [click here! to view] Interact Club Installation (event) 2009 Decor Committee - decorating the hall to the theme of beachy feel, think coconuts, palm trees and big colourful umbrellas. Many many meetings to be held.... and busy.. --whimper-- what if I can't write well and disgrace myself.. I'll ageing prematurely. (worries also about Currently reading: Chronicles of Narnia by C. S Lewis Monday, July 06, 2009
- Darn it
--wails--don't wanna go back to school tomorrow. Today is so short! Right after lunch, Jamiyah (something which I enjoy, but still. And after dinner, interview (me as the interviewer, for the first time) with an ex-resident of a home. I'm supposed to do a 2000 word story on him/her. Gawd. I don't think I'll have a chance to read the books I borrowed from the library yesterday. How does anyone have the time to do everything? (heheh. I guess not blogging + reading manga + reading fictionpress/fanfiction, huh..) Sunday, July 05, 2009
- French Poetry
The Rain Finding Once MoreThe rain finding once more what is lost the sun finding what shines great companions of my life. On the brunette earth I too have found my place. To the entire spheres moving the torments through my gilded steps I go up go down. And there the water stand like blades and I plunge mine in the cisterns' depths under my eyes false witness to the country of my being in the room sleeping by my own light among all the mirrors I shall remember. ~Valentine Penrose 1898-1978 Translated by Mary Ann Caws
- Enrich self with thy words
I should be growing in strength but how can I when I'm doing what I am.Reading shōjo manga, watching romance & action movie flickr, reading non-nonsensical romance novels. All which do not influence the way I think, or make me think in the first place. I wish to enrich myself, to ... learn to view the world in different perspectives and not from my limited point of view. That comes with experience, and I know through reading. I promise myself, that I'll reduce my load of romance books, (I know, a hard feat to accomplish) but sacrifices must be made. In the past, I could have read as many as I wanted, but now not having the time.. I deeply regret how I spend my youth. Just hanging out at a forum which my senior invited me to, discussing the philosophy of life, I'm amazed at the type of books they read, the knowledge they have and the richness in the way they think. I'm nothing compared to them. I can only dream that in time, I can match up to their standards. As you can see on the sidebar, I extended my reading list and segregated them in to two components. It's a way I keep track of the books I need to get my hands on. Love you all. --- By: Kurt Vonnegut in "Bagombo Snuff Box: Uncollected Short Fiction"
Saturday, July 04, 2009
- Tears
In the mood for some crying, re-watched "Fated to love you" miscarriage scene.--sniff--
- Lookie
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- Curl
Weirdly enough, I feel a sense of loss.Perhaps because I know this was the first time I went through a series of exams that count, this unprepared. I don't know what's wrong with me. I think the me one year ago would be freaking out right now, even by this admission. Am I becoming egoistic? or.. just thinking that no matter what, at the end, I'll always do well since I never had to work hard for it? I don't feel him when I pray anymore. It's scary, finally realising that you need something when you don't have it. Sunday, June 28, 2009
- Heat
I'm not feeling the heat yet..I probably will though.. when the dreadful (no offense to the teachers who painstakingly crafted it) paper is in my hands. Don't be surprised if you see a news headline screaming, "Rafflesian shrieks in horror and faints on the spot in the Multi-Purpose Hall. Cause: Economics Paper" A small part of me (yes, my eyes are trained on CNN and this useful website: http://www.swineflu.sg/) hopes.. desperately hopes that school will suddenly announce the closure for a week. Given the time now 10.26PM, the chances of that occurring is ... 0.000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 0000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 0000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 0000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 0000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000(wait for it!) 0000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 0000000000000000000000000000000000000001. Pathetic but my whole soul is clinging for it. --whimper-- But temperature check tomorrow morning and the whole of the week. don't they know that even if you contract the H1N1 flu, you may not have a fever? Sigh. This sucks. Saturday, June 27, 2009
- Lonnnnngg Hair
I'm growing out my hair now.it's in an awkward phase, you know the type where it just (almost!) touches your shoulders but not yet? And the edges start curling after a bath unless you blow dry it... which of course I don't because I'm too lazy, and it spoils your treatment.. plus.. your sideburns aren't long enough to tie up? Yep. It's like that now.
- Random Thought
3 years, 5 months and 28 days.110,160,000 seconds 1,836,000 minutes 30,600 hours 182 weeks (rounded down) 1275 days. 787 posts. I wonder how many words I have written so far? I know I'm spamming this blog recently. ------ The world mourns. Thank you for bringing joy and laughter into people's lives. For you have changed our lives, unknown or not. May you rest in peace.
- Password Protect
I briefly toyed with the idea... and installed Bravenet Password Protect web tool for the past 10 minutes. If you had tried to access my site then, you probably couldn't enter. But .. who would be doing that at 4.40AM before dawn?I'm listening to Pride and Prejudice soundtrack "Dawn" right now. --smiles to self-- What set this off? The password thingy? It actually was with me for a while, after also seeing my neighbour encrypt her posts, which is a pretty good idea, only thing.. if I do it like that, I might as well ban access to the whole site, except to a limited few friends. Why? Cause it irks me off to think that someone I don't want.. could be reading my innermost thoughts. why start blogging then right? I didn't expect it to reach this far, to be attached to this.. blog.. it's almost like my diary though I still censor my thoughts. I find it easier to keep track of my memories this way (still I can't post all my memories here no matter how much I wish too, again sometime that can be changed by protecting this site) through this keyboard... it's soothing in a way to feel the cool buttons under my fingertips.. it's been..almost 4 years.. it's been a long time.. since I started this website.. Plus.. my classmate told me that.. she suspects her blog was read by one of our teachers.. based on a joke he/she (I'm not going to give that away) made.. and so I googled my class, "10S03L", guess where does the first link lead to? HERE Can you understand my worry and panic then? I would faint in horror if my teacher made a .. comment.. (to put it lightly) about something I wrote here.. oh gosh.. I can just remember.. all of the..... ..... nooooo.......... and knowing my luck.. it probably will happen. It's not that I have anything to hide, far from that.. but.. it just makes me feel uneasy... I guess... alright.. crap.. it's not something I have to hide.. but I just prefer not to let ... some people --cough cough-- know.. sigh. this is getting complicated. I was thinking of putting in a simple password to ward off random people.. --cough cough (again!)-- but that can be easier countered just by tweaking here and there (I'm not telling!) so.. that's no use either.. I'll think about it. But anyway, if you come by the next time (though I have a feeling it's rare that anyone stops by these days.. no one in my 'new' school knows about this site.. I think) and it's locked.. don't be surprised. XOXO, Elaine (just felt like signing off for once.. since this is almost like a letter addressed to the reader)
- Habitually wrong
This is rapidly turning into a habit.Blogging in the early throes of the dawn. It's 4.10AM to be exact. Lazed away another day. A part of me wishes for the flu to spread rapidly, and the guilty side of me curses myself for thinking that way, knowing all too well it would inflict thousands and cause.. countless of deaths. Sigh. It would be nice --whacks own head-- though, if only there were the benefits.. and no repercussions.. but that wouldn't be possible.. at least not here.. There's consequences for every action you take, isn't there? Just typing this post out in the darkness, reading this paragraphs of meaningless words for whatever reason... wasting your/my time away. Is it all for naught? Friday, June 26, 2009
- KakaSaku
Ahhh.. reading is proving to be fatal.once I get hooked, there's no tearing me away from it. I'm going to fail fail fail, and where's that going to get me? Haven't completed anything substantial today... or should I say, yesterday... Groan... Gawddd.. Thursday, June 25, 2009
- The Notebook
--sniffles--Re-watched "The Notebook" on tudou.com. All sappy and teary now. --bawls-- it's the most romantic movie ever, not counting "Titanic". it's 2 AM by the way. Morning! Wednesday, June 24, 2009
- "collection"
It's interesting how my hands can find so many things to do when trying to find excuses not to study. Hmm. Image-Heavy post. Be forewarned. Am currently downloading and installing Picasa now. Hopefully it'll make uploading pictures much easier. :) ... ... interlude of 30 minutes... ... nope. it didn't work. What a waste of my time.. going to try photobucket now. ... ... ... FAILED...... I'm going to stick to Blogger. Gawd. Hate the dragging it here and there. I'm about to give up. UGH. UGH. UGH. Uploading the same image again and again. Digress. Digress. 3rd Principle: Repulsion between bond pair electrons is increased by an increase in electronegativity of the central atom. I find typing helps me remember stuff better. Dang. I can hear the cracking of prawn crackers, why oh why did I refuse the Pizza Hut? I am "protesting" against Pizza Hut's new receipe/cost-saving methods of having THIN crusts.. the main highlight of sinking your teeth is the thick golden-brown crisp crust. Now it's all ... yucky. I rather they not use the campaign for the red hot dot thingy (? can't remember) and use the money to give me nice THICK crusts.  heheh. Finally. HP Pavilion dv4 Series Entertainment Notebook PC. :D  Full lenth view. Though an ugly one.  Sidebar! Calender, Power buttons, Dictionary, Notes, Slideshow Screenshot!Now. An update on my "collection". But it's mainly skincare and all. Enter Barbie © Elaine. :) (Don't sue me please. This is just merely a jokey kind of reference, there is no such thing as Barbie Elaine! And even if there is, I don't mean anything by it!) I don't get why the photographs are so blur.. maybe I need to clean the camera lenses..  Overview of my mini-dresser. Beauty tips notebook. I'm not allowed to use anything now (and I'm supportive and happy with this) so.. might as well prepare for it right? So I won't make any silly mistakes --shudder-- in the future.    Body creams. Mainly Cocoa Butter and the Steam Cream. Oh also.. I forgot what-it's-name.. Neutrogena? nah.. Nivea Soft something.. something.. it's the new version of the blue tin of Nivea Body Cream. Not here cause it's my main stapple. I haven't got round to using the Queen Helene Body Lotion.. but soon soon. :)  My trustworthy whitening cream.  Holy Grail. My skin has never been better after I switched to this. Who knew I would be so different from my family members who have oily and sensitive skin? This cleanser is for very dry skin.  Other face things. Masks and scrubs. Used at least once a week. The Mud Pack Masque seriously gives you glowing skin and Oatmeal 'n Honey will grant you with nice-smelling skin (it's very addicting, I can't stop sniffing my hands for the next few hours, and it lasts till the next day), non-overbearing scent though, and very fresh and clean skin. While the Ginseng mask will let your skin turn baby-soft. :) When my skin is oily or the weather is humid, I'll turn to these. But so far, I haven't had a chance to use the Mint Julep Masque. Afraid.. since I read on makeupalley.com that it's for oily skin and can cause patches.. Back-up facial products. But I normally use it for my neck. (if I remember and bother to do it) I bought Hazeline Snow due to temptation when I heard from my colleagues (now ex), that it's used on baby's skin. So I thought, if it's good enough for baby's skin, it's good enough for me. The scent is very comforting but I think it's so gentle that it doesn't have any effect. Olay cream, I bought the wrong version. Hah. I know. I wanted to get the original version, but I couldn't find it and mistakenly thought this was it. This is the rose-scented one... Egyptian Magic! Highly raved about on makeupalley.com and Spreesgalore, I went along with the flow and bought it. It is said to be the holy grail for acne skin as it'll heal it and all.. which I don't have but thought I might as well try. It was horrible... I had a minor breakout and now I just use it for my neck. Again, if I remember. >_<>  Eye cream, still using Mario Badescu, really great. Love the Eucerin face cream. :) Not available in Singapore though. Your skin feels baby soft in the morning. But I also use it when I have dry spots here and there.  Hand cream and if I have blisters or chapped skin, Vaseline! Sometimes, I use it as a lip balm. High Beam. My favourite product of the year. It gives this subtle (really subtle) glimmer to your face wherever you apply it whenever light hits your skin. I think this would be perfect for a day out at the beach. --sighs dreamily-- Of course, you need to know where to apply this, to contour your cheekbones or face shape or it might make you look.. something you don't want to look like. Nail polish. Pathetic collection. But that's because I think it's a waste of time. Plus the smell is putrid. Lipstick/lipgloss collection. Me love. See the one with the ribbon on top of the cap? I didn't manage to take a picture.. but it's my favourite of all. NYX Megashine Lipgloss Baby Rose. 2nd on my list would be NYX Lipgloss with Megashine Perfect.  Hmm.. it's looks a lot more when i line it out like this. Clearer view of NYX lipgloss.  Bonne Bell Lip Sparkler. Utterly yummy. Lipslicks Cutie Girl by Wet n' Wild (I think). Can't seem to find the brand name.  Bloodshot eyes. Serious black circles. All the result of sleeping at 4am this morning, took this at 3am after finishing Arrested Development Season 1.
- Freedom
It's 4 a.m. in the morning.And I'm typing this amidst the darkness in my room, face illuminated by the screen of my laptop. Incorrigible, I know. After finishing prison break (somewhat), I've started on Arrested Development and finished Season 1 plus the last few episodes of Season 3. Also re-watched Cashmere Mafia and Lipstick Jungle before that. ... .... Yes. I know. I'm going to regret this. Monday, June 22, 2009
- Writing
Oh my. How I lust to write, like those with words flowing out of their fingers.Just like the below: "Plagiarism and You! by megan Plagiarism sucks. Us readers and writers at FictionPress have recently discovered this for themselves, as waves and waves of stories have been found stolen, copied, and posted as original works elsewhere by people who had in no way, shape, or form written, contributed, or had any right to access the work in such a way. The sheer number of cases that have cropped up in the last month, however, make it clear that this is not something that has only occurred suddenly, without precedence, but has been going on, behind our backs, for years. It’s totally unacceptable, and it’s made a vast majority of us want to pick up pitchforks and torches and storm the web in classic unruly mob fashion." Excerpt from the Tough and Dirty Newsletter Special Issue. Should anyone have any objection to this entry, please inform me and I'll remove it asap. God forbid anyone stick a pitchfork into my heart and my body wither into vampire ashes. It's like when I read this articles, you can tell these are the definite good writers, the one who are gifted with the command of language. I want to be like that. Sure, I'll say that English is my first and foremost language. I love the feel of it on my tongue and the slithery words on pages of worn books. It's English, one of the most beautiful languages in the world. Of course, many beg to differ with regards to French, the language of romance and love. But you get my point.
- Tear
Dripping down pale cheeks.Bleeding from eyes framed with sooty eyelashes. Weeping in sorrow for all that is lost, and the pain that is to come. Has everyone forsaken her? When she has given up everything to capture their freedom, for her life, her own heart. Sunday, June 21, 2009
- Severn Suzuki speaking at UN Earth Summit 1992
Hello, I'm Severn Suzuki speaking for E.C.O. - The Environmental Children's Organisation. We are a group of twelve and thirteen-year-olds from Canada trying to make a difference: Vanessa Suttie, Morgan Geisler, Michelle Quigg and me. We raised all the money ourselves to come six thousand miles to tell you adults you must change your ways. Coming here today, I have no hidden agenda. I am fighting for my future. Losing my future is not like losing an election or a few points on the stock market. I am here to speak for all generations to come. I am here to speak on behalf of the starving children around the world whose cries go unheard. I am here to speak for the countless animals dying across this planet because they have nowhere left to go. We cannot afford to be not heard. I am afraid to go out in the sun now because of the holes in the ozone. I am afraid to breathe the air because I don't know what chemicals are in it. I used to go fishing in Vancouver with my dad until just a few years ago we found the fish full of cancers. And now we hear about animals and plants going exinct every day -- vanishing forever. In my life, I have dreamt of seeing the great herds of wild animals, jungles and rainforests full of birds and butterfilies, but now I wonder if they will even exist for my children to see. Did you have to worry about these little things when you were my age? All this is happening before our eyes and yet we act as if we have all the time we want and all the solutions. I'm only a child and I don't have all the solutions, but I want you to realise, neither do you! You don't know how to fix the holes in our ozone layer. You don't know how to bring salmon back up a dead stream. You don't know how to bring back an animal now extinct. And you can't bring back forests that once grew where there is now desert. If you don't know how to fix it, please stop breaking it! Here, you may be delegates of your governments, business people, organisers, reporters or poiticians - but really you are mothers and fathers, brothers and sister, aunts and uncles - and all of you are somebody's child. I'm only a child yet I know we are all part of a family, five billion strong, in fact, 30 million species strong and we all share the same air, water and soil -- borders and governments will never change that. I'm only a child yet I know we are all in this together and should act as one single world towards one single goal. In my anger, I am not blind, and in my fear, I am not afraid to tell the world how I feel. In my country, we make so much waste, we buy and throw away, buy and throw away, and yet northern countries will not share with the needy. Even when we have more than enough, we are afraid to lose some of our wealth, afraid to share. In Canada, we live the privileged life, with plenty of food, water and shelter -- we have watches, bicycles, computers and television sets. Two days ago here in Brazil, we were shocked when we spent some time with some children living on the streets. And this is what one child told us: "I wish I was rich and if I were, I would give all the street children food, clothes, medicine, shelter and love and affection." If a child on the street who has nothing, is willing to share, why are we who have everyting still so greedy? I can't stop thinking that these children are my age, that it makes a tremendous difference where you are born, that I could be one of those children living in the Favellas of Rio; I could be a child starving in Somalia; a victim of war in the Middle East or a beggar in India. I'm only a child yet I know if all the money spent on war was spent on ending poverty and finding environmental answers, what a wonderful place this earth would be! At school, even in kindergarten, you teach us to behave in the world. You teach us: not to fight with others, to work things out, to respect others, to clean up our mess, not to hurt other creatures to share - not be greedy. Then why do you go out and do the things you tell us not to do? Do not forget why you're attending these conferences, who you're doing this for -- we are your own children. You are deciding what kind of world we will grow up in. Parents should be able to comfort their children by saying "everyting's going to be alright" , "we're doing the best we can" and "it's not the end of the world". But I don't think you can say that to us anymore. Are we even on your list of priorities? My father always says "You are what you do, not what you say." Well, what you do makes me cry at night. You grown ups say you love us. I challenge you, please make your actions reflect your words. Thank you for listening
- Running away
It feels like I'm running away from it all.The process is tiring, to start it all over again. My body is unwilling though my soul knows I have to do it. I just wonder.. where is the past me? Have I changed that much? Or is it only my own perception? I... I still lust for the same things... romance.. being successful.. being happy, or to be more exact.. finding the place I belong.. and live a carefree life. Do the ends really justify the means? Do I really like the place I'm going? I don't know. Friday, June 19, 2009
- New Lappie
Yay. It finally reached home.HP Pavilion dv4 Series Entertainment Notebook PC. Yummy. Haha :) June holidays is passing by in a blur. Conference, internship, field trips, watching prison break (yes, I know, this comes from a person who complains she has no time) (I'm halfway through season 2 now! lincoln is hot.), not being law-ish at all by procrastinating my way through JC1. I'm going to fail my Common Tests and we'll see where that gets me. And this concludes my first post using my new laptop. Friday, June 12, 2009
- Anguish
Alright. My mentor asked me, what I like to do in my free time, hobbies etc?I replied reading. That's it. The silence was awkward and deafening in all encompassing senses. Outdoor activities? Running and cycling. ... I just realised.. painfully.. how ... I can't even describe my life.. ... it is.. You know I want to have that fulfilled life.. and that's why I'm doing all that I'm doing now.. and I'm happy doing it. But.. gosh.. the looks on their faces.. seriously.. ah..... it's like my life is devoid of any fun things, which is not true.. I just do things my own way.. reading books... playing the piano (rarely now..)... surfing the net (more reading)... doing CCA related stuff (churn out documents and create websites)... ... community service (which I truly love.. is that a hobby?).. run about attending programmes and whatnot.. ah.. I think I forgot about how to have 'me' time anymore. What have I become?
- Sadly enough, I feel the exact same way
Excerpt from the author page on Fanfiction.net of Isabel0329."About Me: Law student (ugh) who would prefer to be a writer. well, I'm an aspiring one I believe passionately in love. I am one of those saps who believes in true love, soulmates and destiny. I have but one goal for my life: find someone I want to share it with that will let me love them until it hurts. I know this is probably a terrible rip-off of a much better quote, but my belief in love can be summed up by: "Do not settle for anything less than passionate, all-encompassing, all-consuming love. There are too many things in this world that are ordinary. Love shouldn't be one of them."" This is exactly what I feel.. let me repeat the sentence, "I have but one goal for my life: find someone I want to share it with that will let me love them until it hurts", plus her belief in love: "Do not settle for anything less than passionate, all-encompassing, all-consuming love. There are too many things in this world that are ordinary. Love shouldn't be one of them." If someone would just let me, I would, but only if he felt the same way. But the scary part is, what if there is no such thing as true love, as the love it is described in books, the "passioniate, all-encompassing, all-consuming love", what if it's all just a myth? Would I be waiting for my lifetime then? Without a taste of love? .. I guess.. if you ask me to choose between being single for life but having everything I want or finding a true perfect love for just one night.. I would choose the true love. Sappy huh? I'm basing this from the questions from the iPhone app, What would you choose? Category: Love. Which would you choose? Save 5 of your loved ones.. or.. Saving 100,000 strangers? |
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Elaine 17 yrs old 30 April '92 Past: NgeeAnn-er Cedarian Present: Rafflesian (JC) Interacter AV Unit chair LAWSOC 10S03L Always: Pianist Dreamer Writer Email me I'm just an ordinary girl, in an extraordinary world.
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By: Sophie Kinsella "Twenties Girl" (21 Jul '09) By: Victoria Forester The Girl Who Could Fly By: Stephanie Meyer The Twilight Saga: The Official Guide "Midnight Sun" (Unknown) By: Mark Cotta Vaz New Moon: The Official Illustrated Movie Companion (6 Oct '09) !Nourishment for the soul
By: Jane Austen "Sense and Sensibility" By: Barack Obama "The Audacity of Hope" "Dreams from my father" By: J. R. R. Tolkien "The Hobbit" "The Lord of the Rings" By: Ms. Mary Ann Caws "The Yale Anthology of Twentieth-Century French Poetry" By: J. D. Salinger "The Catcher in the Rye" "Nine Stories" "Franny and Zooey" "Raise High the Roof Beam, Carpenters and Seymour: An Introduction" By: Haruki Murakami "Norwegian Wood" "Hard-Boiled Wonderland and the End of the World" "Kafka on the Shore" By Michel Houellebecq "Whatever" "Atomized" "Platform" "The Possibility of an Island" By: Friedrich Nietzsche "Basic Writings of Nietzsche" "The Anti-Christ" "Beyond Good and Evil: Prelude to a Philosophy of the Future" By: Kurt Vonnegut "Bagombo Snuff Box: Uncollected Short Fiction" "Slaughterhouse-Five" "Breakfast of Champions" By: Karl Marx "The Communist Manifesto" !Self-Proclaimed Bookworm
I'm not kidding. I practically swallow books every day.
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